In case anyone was wondering what I’m doing this very instant, I’ll tell you. I’m sipping an iced coffee with a splash of soy milk and two Splenda (I know, I know) and eating a fruit salad containing: strawberries, melon, pineapple, and grapes. It’s all I wanted for lunch and a far cry from the mozzarella Paninis I had been enjoying too frequently. I know I’ll need to add some more protein at some point today and no worries I’m sure I won’t starve.
I feel very in control of my eating (it’s half way through Day 1, mind you), but that’s HUGE for me. I also made a promise to myself to skip the subway today and walk. I was talking to Jamie last night about my fears surrounding Weight Watchers. They mostly stem from how I failed to stick to to it the last time I tried. She suggested I throw out my old WW booklets which housed my weight from every weigh-in between 2005 and 2008. I didn’t want to part with them. I also began to stress about a Tapas dinner out with friends on Friday night. She stopped me dead in my tracks and said focus on tomorrow and go from there. One. Day. At. A. Time. I need to sloooooow it down.
Yes, I would love to wake up tomorrow and wear my size 4/6 white pants (with the tags still on from 2007, but I digress). I will get into those pants. Even if it takes until the last day of the freaking summer, I will strut through the city in those pants. I will never get there with this much worry and stress. This program works. I need to trust the program, follow the guidelines, do my best and, as Frankie says, RELAX.
Don’t get me wrong, it was a harsh reality stepping on that scale yesterday. I was a good 8 pounds heavier than I had hoped. Apparently convincing yourself that the bathroom scale is wrong is not an effective weight loss tool. I’m trying to muster up some excitement for this process. The first time I went to Weight Watchers (back in April 2005 in State College, PA) I had no expectations and was pleasantly surprised at how easy it was to follow the program. The good news is, that this is a completely new program, so I’m making an executive decision. I’m going to follow this program like it’s the first time. I threw out all my WW literature and I’m starting fresh.
Here are my short-term goals:
1. Lose five pounds before June 10th. I would like to greet New Orleans a little lighter on my feet.
2. Work out 3 times per week until June 10th.
3. Attend one WW meeting per week until June 10th. I’ve saved the best for last here. Sitting through meetings can sometimes be painful, especially after a gain, etc. But, just making that appointment with myself is a reminder of my goals and the support is immeasurable. People say things in those meetings that I can only muster the strength to write on a blog. Imagine that. It’s powerful stuff.
In other news, I will most likely write about WW once a week (around my meetings). I don’t want it to take over my life.