Thursday, May 5, 2011

On Control…

I fancy myself a control freak.  A good old-fashioned “no I’ll drive” or “no really I’ll pick the restaurant” control freak.  Yet, when it comes to my food life I’m a total laid back hippie.  Pizza?  Sure.  Pork Belly crouton?  Why Not?  Nutella filled Banana Cupcakes with Peanut Butter Frosting?  Absolutely! (Especially since I’m  the one who baked them!)  I’m a glutton.  Too  much is never enough. 

That is why I’m so relieved to be on flexible program like Weight Watchers.  I’ve never been able to strike the perfect balance on my own.  I’m (re)learning not to let going out out to eat scare me and that I’m always in control of what I put into my body.  Truth be told, I had been putting off making an real dietary changes out of fear that I would not be able to hold up my end of the bargain.  The fantastic news is that perfection in not necessary.  There is always wiggle room for when life sneaks in and I can still successfully lose weight and enjoy my life.  I’m not training for a million dollar role (unfortunately), I’m just looking to be comfortable in my skin (and my cut-off’s, obvi). 

This is not to say that I can return to my old ways and lose weight because I think we can all see how well that worked.  I need the structure and I need the flexibility.  I need to feel in control with the option to lose control every now and then  Does that make sense?

P.S.  I have quite the dessert up my sleeve for Mother’s Day…stay tuned!

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