Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Writer’s Block…

As you all know, this Sunday I will be the Third Generation Speaker at a Holocaust Memorial service at the cemetery where my maternal Grandfather and his family are buried.  Considering I spill my guts on this blog almost every single day, I figured I could write this speech no problem.  Well, I was wrong.

I have started and restarted the speech several times over the last few days.  I just can’t seem to get it out clearly.  I was on the phone with my parents last night as I was struggling to form coherent sentences and my Mom asked how I was able to discuss such personal topics on the blog, yet I couldn’t express myself in this speech.  I was stumped. 

Then I realized it’s the idea of speaking in front of a bunch of Jewish Mothers.  Discussing my Jewish identity and what my Grandmother, a Holocaust survivor, means to me.  I mean, holy shit, how can I even put it into words?

So I’m going to go back to the basics and stop trying so hard.  I will write this speech like I’ve written everything else…from my head to the page.  No over-thinking, no late night phone calls freaking out to my parents. 

I got this.  See ya on Sunday!

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