Today let's talk movies. More specifically, let's talk movies set during the holidays in London. I hope you see where I'm going with this. Love Actually is the quintessential Holiday movie. It stars a few of my favorite British boys (Hugh Grant, Colin Firth, etc) The music, the whimsy, the setting...it all just works. I watch it every year over Christmas and I'm looking forward to this years' viewing with a hot toddy in hand. On this foggy, misty Tuesday a mere two days before my birthday, I'm feeling especially pensive. I had a full-fledged tantrum last night. I might as well have been stomping my foot like a petulant child. It was no bueno. So much for maturity coming with age.
You see, I have high expectations for those around me. I try to be the best friend, sister, daughter, person that I can. Sometimes I feel as though I'm not getting it in return. I need to realize that just because I am doing the right thing, doesn't mean others will reciprocate. If I'm doing things in the hopes of someone returning the favor I might as well not do it in the first place. Does that make any sense? I need to start doing what is best for me instead of worrying about those around me. I'm not saying I will be a selfish asshole, just more cognizant of what makes me happy and what relationships feel draining.
So that's all on this damp Tuesday. How are y'all doing?