Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Breakeven...

One of my favorite Script song's covers the phenomenon of heartbreak.  I'll summarize the thesis of the song in one sentence.  A breakup is never even.  One side always heals faster; coming out on top.  No matter how mutual the decision may seem at the time, one party will immediately find someone new.  It will seem impossible; how quickly they move on.  But we just broke up, the heartbroken side will say.  In a matter of weeks, the former most important person in your life will be the most important person in someone else's life.  It doesn't seem fair.  In truth, it's not.  It's the breakup karma.

We see this all the time with celebrity breakups.  Ahem, Jen and Brad (plus Angelina).  I have seen this firsthand with some of my best girlfriends.  It causes me actual physical pain to say this but, the man generally moves on faster.  Ugh.  Talk about unfair.  Why am I talking about this today?  Well, Breakeven was the first song that I heard when I left my apartment.  I also had to reinforce my stance on protecting my heart last night for the umpteenth time.  I've had just about enough.  When you chose someone new, you do not get to keep the person whose heart is breaking in the background.  How many time I will have to say this, I have no idea.  Probably until I am blue in the face.

I think what I'm trying to say is, I want to be the most important person in someones life (other than my Mom and I share that title with these two other fools called my Dad and Sister).  I do not need another "friend."  I have begun to believe that this offer of friendship has nothing to do with me.  It has to do with the other person's guilt.  No one enjoys hurting people, unless you're a sociopath.  To make yourself feel better, you "check in" on the person you hurt.  Making sure "they're alive."  All the while enjoying their new relationship as well.  Hey buddy, you can't have both.  You made your choice.  Now stop worrying about me.  I am fine.  Don't I seem fine?

Rant over.  Now let's hope for the best at my weigh in and get my bags packed for my LA adventure!

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